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Faery Meditation

I am working on a series of books on Faery. It’s a channeled piece, told to me by a stone. Long story.

Anyway, I am offering you this beginning meditation from the book. With all of the solar storms and astrological events and energetic hoohaw going on, I thought it might help:

Go out into a garden, and take your shoes off. Feel the texture of the ground. Squat down and place your hands in the dirt, if you can. Feel the quality of it. Is it moist? Dry? Hard? Soft? Crumbly? Sticky? What does it smell like? Taste it, if you dare, just a little. Is it sharp? Sweet?

Are there any water features? A pond, a stream, a fountain, a birdbath? Go touch the water. Is it warm? Cool? What does it smell like? Is it moving or still? Is there anything visible living in it?

What plants grow here, in this garden? What shape are the leaves? What are the textures? Are things plump or flat? Are there flowers? What are the scents of the plants, not just the flowers, but the leaves. How do the plants move? What shapes do they grow in? How many of them can you name? What would you guess, if you do not know, their medicinal properties would be?

Take a deep breath. Feel the air filling your lungs. Is it cool? Hot? What does it smell like? What does it taste like? Is it dry or humid? Does it feel sharp or smooth? Is there a breeze? What direction is it coming from? Is it a different temperature than the air?

Are there insects? What kind? What are they doing? Are they moving quickly or slowly? Do they stay close to the ground or fly up high? What sound do they make?

Speaking of sound, what sounds do you hear, out in this garden? Are there manmade sounds as well as the sounds of nature? Is there a rhythm or a song to the noise as a whole? Is there bird song? Crickets? Bees? Frogs? Is the sound different when you move versus when you stand still?

Look up at the sky. Are there clouds? Blue sky? Haze or maybe even smog? Where in the sky is the sun? What color is the sky? Can you see the moon as well? Are there birds flying? Can you name them? Are they raptors? Carrion eaters? Birds that eat bugs in trees? Fruit eaters? Birds that go after ground insects? What colors are they? What’s their wingspan? Do they fly together or alone? Do they glide lazily on the currents or head purposely in a direction? Can you feel the sun on your skin, warming you?

This is awareness of the natural world. This is the easiest way to start to heal the disconnect that we have created with our power lines and our concrete and our steel. You should take 5 minutes out of every day to do this, to just be and reconnect with nature. Notice how your body feels when you do this? Do things feel slower or faster for you. Do you move deliberately or do you feel like you need to rush through the process?

Remember that your resistance, your density, is going to try to dissuade you from this process. Make a commitment to stay with the experience, to the best of your ability, despite any internal or external discomfort that arises. Sometimes it helps to imagine that you are breaking through the soles of your feet, releasing any pain or anxiety into the ground. Don’t let your resistance tell you this is a bad idea, that you might poison or otherwise harm the earth – is Nature not the great alchemist, turning carbon dioxide into oxygen, water into clouds, and trash into nutrients for the plants? Surely Nature can transmute your pain and anxiety into something more useful.

Why I Enjoy My Advanced Classes

One of my favorite classes right now is A Shaman’s Workshop, an apprenticeship-style class over at Matrix International University. It’s advanced enough that we can really play with the subject matter. Because students majoring in New-shamanism have to take at least 3 trimesters of it in order to graduate, I set it up so that the series is 9 trimesters long; that way, no one repeats a topic, regardless of when they start. Subjects are based on the cycle of the local wheel, with Spring trimester being a growth topic, Summer being an abundance or life topic, and Fall being an introspective topic.

We just started the Summer trimester series, and the elemental influence is Air. We’ll be doing trance induction through breathwork, examining the energy between things, and working with weather. We were mostly indoors yesterday for the first class, but at least 2 more of the classes will be held out in nature. I feel strongly that an experiential class in shamanism needs to have a visceral connection to the planet.

Over the weekend, the weather changed (much to the benefit of the firefighters, I’m sure), and we really had an opportunity to feel the weather. One of the great things about playing with weather in LA is that it has such clearly defined weather patterns. Even our inversion layer is obvious. So we looked at various trees that had opinions on the likelihood of rain, we felt the quality and flavor of the wind, and we got to feel the ceiling on a low pressure system. After talking about the ethics of weather work, we played a little bit with push and pull, with special focus on the Camarillo Springs fire area. While cause and effect are often indistinguishable from coincidence, yesterday the professional weatherfolk were predicting 20% chance of rain for today, and today it’s up between 80-90%, depending on which site you look at.

I’m not claiming ownership on this, but I am pleased that the folks in the fire-threatened areas are going to get some relief. Ego has no place in work like this, and the best you can ever hope for is to convince a weather pattern that it wants to be stronger or weaker. You work with the patterns that already exist, no more, no less.

For those of you who missed it, the May Newsletter finally went up on Saturday. Sorry for the delay!

What Are You For?

Author’s note: I wrote this back in 2006, but it seems rather pertinent, so I’m reposting.

I was once asked why I don’t participate in anti-war demonstrations. I said that I will never do that, but as soon as you have a pro-peace rally, I’ll be there.
-Mother Teresa

Energy follows focus. If I focus on being against something, I am still focusing on that thing and, therefore, feeding it energy.

Terrorism is a great example of this. Terrorism seeks a response, that is its purpose. By reacting to terrorism, I give it power. If I continue to live my life without fear, on the other hand, I maintain my own power.

So, I ask you, what are you FOR? What are you in favor of, with a passion that causes you to do something about it? What would you march for, fight for, rally for, sing for, raise money for?

I am for peace, for love, and for the environment I am for freedom of expression, freedom of self, freedom of love, freedom of partnership, freedom of religion and spiritual belief, and freedom of pocketbook I am for health and healing, wherever it is needed I am for community, for making my community feel supported and nurtured, and for open communication without judgment within my community I am for abundance, with the realization that there is enough for everyone

What are you for?

Maintaining Peace in the Midst of Chaos

(from 2001)

As we walk along the path of consciousness, we create situations for ourselves that help us to grow so that we do not become stagnant. This means that the more serenity you bring into your life, tho more important your soul finds it to test that serenity, to help you to exercise those muscles, and you can find yourself in the midst of chaos rather quickly. The goal in this case is to maintain your inner peace, your serenity, no matter what you are confronted with. This is sometimes hard to remember when you’re in the middle of it, of course, but the remembering is part of the exercise. Think of it as a spiritual workout.

The first step is to stay grounded. Our natural tendency is to ‘go away,’ but it is much easier to not feel overwhelmed when present (see July’s article). It also becomes easier to maintain a sense of inner peace when one stays grounded. Unruffled is unruffled, no matter how you look at it.

The second step is to bless that which brings you chaos. Assess the situation, determine what or who it is that is causing the chaos (usually whatever is irritating you), and project love and compassion toward it. This is the best way to keep it from affecting you.

Understand that there is no requirement that you play whatever game is presented to you. You are under no obligation to participate in chaos. In fact, at a higher, soul level, you are supposed to let the chaos go on around you and remain unaffected. This raises your vibration and the vibration of those around you. You may even be surprised to find that your perspective on your surrounding chaos starts to shift, and you acquire a more ‘evolved’ view of circumstances.

It is important to maintain your regular daily practice regardless of what is going on around you. Allowing your spiritual activities to fall by the wayside because of other things only guarantees that you will have less time, less energy, fewer coping skills, and will increase your problems. conversely, maintaining your practice in the midst of turmoil will increase your coping skills, give you more energy, and create more time to handle the details.

The easiest and most common form of daily practice is meditation. This doesn’t have to be some form of esoteric candle-watching mind-clearing activity. You can get a guided meditation tape, you can go for a walk and pay attention to your surroundings, you can purchase a daily meditation book and read and contemplate the daily meditation; there are any number of effective meditation techniques readily available. Generally, consider meditation to be anything that quiets you enough to be able to hear that small, still voice within.

When disaster strikes

From Spirit’s point of view, disaster is an opportunity for growth. I know this is very hard to bear in mind when faced with imagery of blood and terror, or when people you know leave this world suddenly. Spirit is not limited by what we perceive as limitations, Spirit does not see what we call death as an ending, Spirit does not grieve the same things we grieve.

In September of 2001, when faced with the hugeness of the terror attacks in New York and DC, I asked Spirit what I was supposed to do with this overwhelming data, because I didn’t know. My brain just shorted out, and I didn’t know what to do. Spirit said something very much like what They said yesterday:

“Blessed are those who give their lives in tragedy, for they afford the rest of us the opportunity to grow in community and in light.

Blessed are those who create tragedy, for they take on karma while affording us the opportunity to grow in community and light.

Blessed are the witnesses, for they can grow in community and light; they can be The Helpers of which Fred Rodgers spoke. They draw their loved ones close. They open their homes or make food or bring blankets or facilitate connection. They are the people who run towards the smoke, the runners who changed course to blood donation stations, the people who acted and are acting.

It is only when we freeze that terrorism is effective.”

Remember, darkness is the absence of light. You carry the light within you, and it is not finite. Share your light with others, maintain the light, stay in the light, and there is no way that darkness can touch you. Whether disaster spurs you to positive action in your family, in your community, or on a global scale, you are acting as a LightWorker, and you are actively thwarting the darkness.

You truly are the Light of the World.

Reorganization of Information

I am in the process of rethinking the organization of this website, and it really is a metaphor for what’s going on in my life. I need to change the order of presentation, for one, so that something else is presented when you first come to the site. I am also re-evaluating my masks and how I present myself as a healer and a teacher, courtesy of Raccoon. Interestingly, I recently came to the conclusion that I don’t have to make friends with my shadow self, because it’s already a fully integrated part of me. I would, in fact, argue, that I present my shadow self more as who I am in my personal life that I do what is probably my not-shadow self. ::shrug:: I’ve always done things a little backwards.

I am also giving serious through to reorganizing the Tools page, and breaking it down into smaller pages so it’s easier for find what you’re looking for. So, a page for books and readable media, a page for meditations and listenable media, a page for online classes (which are coming soon), a page for clearing bowls, and a page for oils and incenses (which I’m starting to make again). Possibly a page for jewelry, as I think that’s coming back into you repertoire as well. All of this is merely a way for me to make it easier for you to figure out how I can help you. Which means I probably need to sort out the Services area a little more, or at least make the site navigation more user-friendly. In the 3D, I am also looking for ways to be more accessible to my clients and students; this may mean being more accessible in the virtual world, as I can serve more people in this forum.

This is all part and parcel of the dredging up the river I did for the last month. We are now out of Mercury Retrograde (although still in it’s wake, don’t get too excited), so I can really look forward and create new methods of communication and new ways to make myself available.  I’m sure it will be interesting…

A Very Tardy Writeup of Pantheacon

Over Presidents’ Day weekend, I attended Pantheacon in San Jose. Envision 3000 pagans, 4 days of workshops and rituals (with up to 14 of those being held simultaneously in any given time slot), plus vendors and readers and book signings and hospitality suites, in an airport hotel. This was my second year attending and my first year presenting.

I attended:

I also did readings one afternoon and offered by Becoming the Goddess workshop, visited a number of hospitality suites, and had some great conversations with people.

It was exhausting and exhilarating and informative and inspiring. I dredged up all sort of shadow stuff to be purged or otherwise dealt with. I learned new skills and techniques and affirmed old ones. I bought some earrings and a reclaimed raccoon tail that resonated with me the way most animal products don’t. I saw people I hadn’t seen in quite some time, people I had just seen at the Conference on Current Pagan Studies, and people with whom I had only spoken to online.

Out of everything I attended, the most useful workshop was, hands down, the Four Powers of the Sphinx. It laid out a very simple and easy to use formula for manifesting that, when combined with the other events I attended, really felt like it was going to make a difference for me. I also just adore T Thorn Coyle’s manner of expressing ideas, which I’m sure helped.

The most powerful ritual was Hecate’s Path. It was a ritual of mourning for a close friend of the leaders, and mostly involved a room full of people chanting the same thing for about an hour; but it was so very transformative and the energy was stunning. I originally chose to attend it because I do a monthly dark moon/new moon myself, and I wanted to experience how others might observe that. It ended up being so much more.

I was supposed to go up with a handful of my students (and possibly even my husband), and ended up going by myself, which was perfect. I was able to feel my way through which things I wanted to attend, didn’t have to worry too much about meeting up with anyone, and probably actually got more rest than I would have if I was part of a group. I stay off site, which enables me to completely shift gears when I need to, but having a hotel room there might have been nice simply so I could nap during meal breaks.

I am still processing the lessons learned, so this probably isn’t as in depth as I would like. It was a wonderful weekend and I do highly recommend it if you want a lot of workshops in a short amount of time, or if you want to feel a part of a larger community, or even if you want to expose yourself to new pagan experiences. It’s affordable, it’s convenient for anyone on the west coast (or at least Californians), and it is becoming an annual tradition for me.

Cleansing Baths

As today’s psychic fair, I had occasion to recommend cleansing baths (also known as “limpia baths”) for a high percentage of my clients [note:energy cleasing, rather than getting rid of dirt, although they'll do that, too]. As you may have noticed, I like patterns. This pattern makes me think that perhaps people need to do more cleansing baths, especially snce so many people have been ‘dredging their riverbottoms,’ as it were, during this Mercury retrograde.

A limpia bath will clear a person’s energy and even reset it, so that they are fee of whatever external influences are not working for them – old relationships, negative thoughts and habits, or even just whatever they may have brought up from the depths to be cleared. They are always done for a proscribed number of days in a row, generally in multiples of seven (or, in extreme cases, for 40 days). They always have salt in them (epsom, sea, or Himalayan), and they should also always have bay leaf (also known as bay laurel). Some people will add stones, like rose quartz or amethyst, to assist them in what they are working on; pay attention to where on the hardness scale a stone lies, if you are going to do this – anything softer than quartz may not fare as well through the process.

Limpia baths frequently also have other herbs in them, or oils. Oils and the salt can be added directly to the bath, the herbs should be put in a suacepan with water to cover, and brought to a boil on the stove (with a lid on), and allowed to simmer for 15-20 minutes, and strained. The resulting liquid is then added to the bath. Rosemary is clearing and protective, but also energizing, so I don’t recommend it in the evening, generally speaking. Lavender is calming and soothing, and is the gentlest of the clearing herbs. Black sage helps with magickal workings and inducing trance, so is good for channeling, automatic writing, goddess work, and empowerment (but should be used sparingly). Hyssop is a staple herb in Hoodoo (American folk magick) and comes up for a lot of magickal baths. If you’re pulling out the big guns, in terms of both energy and clearing, I am a fan of helichrysum; it was added to ritual foot baths during biblical times.

Water has strong conducting properties and, as such, can be made to take on a specific quality. This is part of the basis of Dr Emoto‘s work on water. The very structure of water can be changed by a word, a prayer, or an energy. Putting a label, such as “love” or “pure” on a container that holds water, even overnight, can strongly effect the water therein. Likewise, a single drop of holy water added to a larger container of tap water, will change the entire container to hold water. These ideas can, as you might imagine, be used to your advantage for magickal bathing.

Any tool will, of course, be more helpful in some instances more than others. Baths are especially useful for women clearing old relationships, because women take on the energy of their partner (even in a same sex relationship) during the act of sex. Some traditions hold that, without conscious work, a cord remains for seven full years past the last instance of sexual intercourse. The water from a bath will naturally get to more places than other forms of cleansing, such as smudge or a salt scrub.

Some traditions would have you, when the bath is over, throw all the water, or at least a cup of it, out into the garden or out your back door or along the path of a person (if you are clearing the energy left by that person). Bear in mind that this aspect was probably started when people didn’t have indoor plumbing and, therefore, drains, so there was something to be said for paying conscious attention to what you did with your waste water. But there is a certain merit to the idea, even in the days of sewer systems; Mother Nature is the most efficient recycler of energies that I know of. She transfors carbon dioxide into oxygen through plants. She transmutes sewage into drinkable water through marshes. Releasing into the earth any energy that you need cleared, transformed, or transmuted may be the most efficient way to get the job done. So, if you were to give a cup of your bathing water to Gaia, it might speed your work along. I do recommend avoiding putting it right where you are trying to grow something, because of the salt.

Be creative, open yourself to inspiration, and feel free to look in a book or two for the properties of specific herbs to assist you in your endeavors. I recommend Hoodoo Herb and Root Magic, Cunningham’s Encyclopedia of Magical Herbs, and Healing Herbs A to Z: A Handy Reference to Healing Plants. There are, or course, others.

Happy bathing!

 

 

Cycles

Raccoon asked me this morning to create a cycle calendar. Basically, Raccoon tends to do things on a 20-week cycle, so that’s 4 quarters of 5 weeks each, with the energies of germination, growth, thriving, and harvest. Since I noticeably started a cycle on Friday, I used that as a starting point. I cross referenced important personal dates, Mercury Retrogrades, and cycles of the moon, because I will likely be using the calendar during this cycle for tracking energies and for date planning, so more data is always good. I put the Gregorian dates on the calendar as well, so I could quickly figure out where I was in the calendar.

Things that jump out at me:

  • It begins and ends with a Mercury Retrograde.
  • My natal birthday is the beginning of the “thriving” quarter (also the mid-point in the cycle).
  • It always begins on a Friday, which is as it should be to my mystery-school-trained mind.

Aaaand, that’s about it so far. Hey, it’s not like I’ve played with it much yet!

At the very least, it will be interesting to track things on this calendar. I’m sure Raccoon will give me more information as I need it, or show me how to find it. I’ll let you know when other interesting tidbits come up.

 

Your Body Will Tell You What to Work On

I owe you a post about Pantheacon, which I attended this past long weekend, and I will get to it. However, I did enough personal work at the conference, that I actually managed to contract the dreaded “ConPlague.”

This seems like a good opportunity to remind you that any physical ailment has an emotional root cause. Whether it is a cold, the flu, a norovirus, a sprained ankle, a bad back, or a broken leg, using the physical as a clue to the emotional issue you are working, and then consciously doing the work, will promote faster healing.

Personally, I attended several shadow-self workshops, so I stirred up a bunch of goo I hadn’t been looking at. This is good. Knowing myself more thouroughly, in all my aspects, helps me be more effective on all levels. Looking at my syptoms gives me some clues as to what the issues are. First and foremost, ths seems to be an infection of the ear/nose/throat variety, so that’s throat chakra. The 5th chakra is responsible not just for the voice (being heard, voicing our truth), but for creativity, and for how we put ourselves out in the world. The blockage seems to be towards the back, so it’s definitely something I haven’t been willing (until now) to look at. There is some sensitivity in the ears, mostly on the right, so I would deduce that I need to be listening more to how I am being perceived as I put myself out there. The fever was giving me pain in my hips on both sides, so there was some issue with both flexibility and moving forward, on both the receiving/passive polarity and the action polarity. I was nauseous the first 24 hours, so there’s some ego/fear conflict going on (very common), and I’m getting some purging of old emotions.

I have had a theme, over the years, of being afraid of putting myself out there, of writing, and of teaching on a large scale. My variation on the fear of success, really, combined with a lifetimes-old issue of being afraid people won’t hear me, believe me, or take me seriously. I even have a very clear image of being shot in the throat with an arrow while teaching. I will remind you that, even if you have worked an issue extensively, there are always layers to that onion, and it may very well come up again. Don’t let your negative ego use this as an excuse to be discouraged; instead, think of it as getting that much closer to never havingto deal with the pattern again. Easier said than done, believe me, I know.

So, I need to open myself up to more feedback, and to evauate it objectively, without fear, listening for truth so that I can know myself better in all my parts. I also need to make a committment to myself to finish the books I’ve been working on, and put them out there. It’s probaby also time to get some articles published in other venues, and to submit presentations to more conferences and festivals. Knowing me, it’s probably time to get a mentor again. Asking for help is notone of my strong suits, and this will require additional courage to put myself out there, because there’s a level of responsibility that comes from asing someone to help you with career development, because it’s not fair to ask and then not follow through.

So, enough about me. What are you working on?