You’re probably overwhelmed. Here’s why.

Last weekend I started feeling overwhelmed. It happens sometimes. Instead of getting better as I used my tools, though, the overwhelm kept increasing. By this weekend, I was almost incapable of getting things done and ended up eating froyo and binge watching TV. Core issues were coming up, and I wasn’t able to get an appointment with any of my colleagues to work through them. My brain got stuck in “I can’t”.

Full Moon in Pisces - are you overwhelmed?I was working on putting together information for my Full Moon Women’s Circle (which I ended up having to cancel anyway), and I realized, “Hey, it’s a full moon.” Sometimes I’m a master of the obvious. People get emotional and things can be wacky at Full Moon. And then I noticed it was a PISCES Full Moon. ::shudder:: Pisces Full Moon, for me anyway, is even more emotional than a Cancer Full Moon (which is pretty emotional). As I attempted to plow through the information from the various astrologers I follow, I realized that this was a doozy (something about Neptune also being in Pisces, apparently). Sarah Varcas used the phrase “an unnerving dissolution of self.” Lena over at The Power Path said “Holding on to the familiarity of our dysfunctions is breeding suffering and despair.”

I started getting confirmation almost immediately, as I became aware of how many other people were also feeling overwhelmed. This wasn’t just me. Knowing that is helpful, although it doesn’t mitigate the fact that the Giant Squid of Emotions is trying to swallow me whole.

Basically, for a lot of us, those core issues that we’ve been not processing deeply enough are rising up and giving us no choice. I mean, yes, sure, you always have a choice, it’s a Free Will Universe. Believe me, though, dealing with the stuff that’s trying to swallow your face is probably the better option. Write about it so it’s not rolling around in your heady like a snowball, getting bigger. Talk to your shrink, spiritual advisor, or whoever will let you process verbally without trying to fix you. Be present to the feelings so you can move through it. Throw all your tools at it. But deal with it now.

Posted in Astrology, Crisis, Healing, Moon, Personal growth, Tools

A Spiritual Pep Talk

Everything in the Universe in the Universe is constantly expanding and contracting.

All matter is energy. All non-matter is energy. Energy is defined by it’s motion, which is a push and a pull, or expansion or contraction. So the Universe, and everything in it, is breathing. We might strive for balance, as well we should, but we will never achieve it, because we are made of energy. We are constantly in motion. Everything in us is constantly in motion.

So let yourself off the hook. An ideal is just an ideal, something to strive for. You are exactly where you are, and that is right and good.

We suffer from perfectionism in our society, driven by the ego messages of “I’m not enough,” “There’s not enough,” and “There will never be enough.” These are the lies our ego tells us to keep us from growth. If we can’t do it perfectly, why bother at all, right? This i what keeps us powerless and paralyzed.

Take your power back!

Allow yourself to be exactly where you are. AND Strive for goals, work for change, stretch yourself, challenge assumptions. Work to make yourself a better person. Work to make the world a better place. Don’t let the myth of perfectionism strip you of your power.

This originally appeared in the September newsletter

Posted in empowerment, Equality, Kabbalah, Mysticism, Personal growth, Tools

What does it mean to do your best?

To do your best is to be present.

I always start from the idea that either the Divine is everything or it is nothing (or, sometimes, it is both, but we’ll let that alone for now). If the Divine is everything, then you are a part of the Divine; what you are reading this on is a part of the Divine; your pets are part of the Divine; and every single person with whom you interact with today is a part of the Divine. Every single thing is a cell in the body Divine, if you will.

"Do your best" - Don Miguel RuizIn order to stand in your Divine power, all you need to do is your best, a measurement that will change from moment to moment. It would be unreasonable to expect you to do more than your best, and when we do our best, we are completely present. The Now is where the Divine exists, because it is the only moment that actually exists. Everything else is in your mind, whether it is a story you’ve made up about what’s going to happen in the future, or a memory you hold in your mind from the past. The only reason we ever don’t do our best is because we aren’t present – we are stuck in the past or the future. Be here, now.

When we don’t allow ourselves to be present, we turn away from the Divine. Not just from the external concept of the Divine, but also from our own Divinity. We shut off our access to a limitless supply of energy; we disempower ourselves. We buy into the lie that we aren’t enough. But if you are a cell in the body Divine, and you are doing your best, how can you possibly be not enough?

Track your progress so you can do your best.This is not to say that we shouldn’t strive to stretch our limits, to grow. Growth is Divine. Expansion is Divine. Of course, so is contraction, which means that when your best is less than it was before, this is still right and good. Thinking that you should be anything other than what you are in this moment is to not be present, and therefore to turn away from the Divine. Now is the only moment that exists. What you can do right now is all you can do. Don’t get distracted by what was or what could be, or, worse yet, what someone else told you should be. Be here. Now. Do what is front of you. Be present to the task.

When you evaluate yourself, ask what you did to the best of your ability, where you were able to grow, and where you weren’t able to be present. Ask yourself how you can change your ability to be present and in acceptance of what is. These things are all the measuring stick you will ever need.

Posted in empowerment, Mysticism, Personal growth, Practice, Shamanism, Stress

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