The Full Moon Women’s Circle is shifting

We’ll be doing something a little different for the Full Moon Women’s Circle in 2019. Madeline Rose and I were talking, and we’d like to create a safe and supportive space for women to experience energetic, emotional, and practical support for the changes women go through in our lives. The Full Moon Women’s Circle provides an excellent framework for that.

Lasara Firefox Allen wrote a marvelous book called Jailbreaking the Goddess, which offers a fivefold, nonlinear model of the Goddess (and therefore all women), rather than the threefold model, which assumes, amongst other things, that all women breed. Incorporating the fivefold model, we will explore who we are and how we are experiencing our lives. We’ll be offering original meditations, rituals, and exercises, accumulated wisdom, and a place for questions and discussion.

Starting in January with an introduction to the concepts, we will explore one of the archetypes each month. Because this is not a linear or biology-dependant model, there will always be something with which you can identify. If you are working through, or having trouble processing, something specific, drop one of us a note, and we’ll do our best to incorporate support for that specific issue into that month’s Circle.

While this is not a book club, if you would like to pick up your own copy of Jailbreaking the Goddess, you will have a stronger grasp of the foundation material we will be using.

In the meantime, we’ll be keeping to our previous crafting & meditation format. Next Circle is Wednesday the 24th in Studio City! RSVP for full location.

Proposed dates for Circle:
January 20
February 20
March 17
April 18
May 15
June 16
July 17
August 14
September 13
October 12
November 12
December 2

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October is for releasing and ancestors

I have been so focused on getting everything together for my 2019 classes, and doing current marketing, and actually teaching the classes currently on the schedule, that I have completely forgotten to post. Sorry about that. I feel like we’re in wrap up and catch up energies currently. I’m sure part of it is the fact that October is a grief month for me, so my own personal energy is more sluggish. But it’s also a reflection of the world at large. There has been so much going on that we have no choice but to cut away some of the things which no longer serve us. It happens every year – as we approach the thinning of the veil in autumn, we start releasing so we can be ready to meet the dark of winter unburdened.

On the wheel of the year, between the Solstices and Equinoxes, are four midpoints, called cross-quarters. The veil tends to be thinnest then, especially the ones at the beginning of May and the beginning of November. The ones in February and August have an energy unto their own, which includes a thinner veil, but in a different way. At the cross-quarter in May, the thinning of the veil is more celebratory, and takes on the energy of the Fae. The autumnal one tends to connect us to the Ancestors (both of blood and not). None of us gets anywhere without the help of others. The Ancestors have laid the foundation for our progress. It is important to connect with them in gratitude year-round if we wish their continued assistance; this is the tie when we most likely feel their presence.

Take some time for yourself this month. Sit in silence. Assess what are the things you can let go of, whether they are ideas & beliefs, people, things… Do some work to start releasing. And take a look at what the ancestors have given you. No matter how discordant your family of origin is, there are gifts. What is the energy of your family line? How can it be righted? Go into meditation and ask your ancestors for insight. Figure out what healing needs to happen, and follow that. If you need assistance, I’ll be doing my annual Healing the Ancestral Lineage workshop on November 3rd. Whether you join us or not, the energy at this time is optimal for honoring, shifting, and healing ancestral energies. There are many traditions that offer ways to do that if you look around.

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How to Make a Choice Between Anger and Fear

Anger, as I keep saying, is merely a call to action. Yes, it can mask other emotions, and it’s still a call to action. You can channel the passion and energy of your anger into empowered forward motion. Fear, on the other hand, is a call to inaction; when you are in fear, anxiety, or trauma trance, you are incapable of acting effectively in your life; everything becomes a binary choice, and you are easily controlled (trauma trance is the fugue we go into when an old trauma is triggered). You can choose, it just takes some practice.

First of all, learn to recognize the symptoms of trauma trance, anxiety, and fear:

  • Disoriented
  • Overwhelmed
  • Light-headed
  • Short tempered
  • Hard to think
  • Hard to focus
  • Shortness of breath
  • Cold sweat
  • Cold hands & feet
  • Everything is extreme
  • In addition, there are going to be physical symptoms, somewhat unique to you and based on the chemical reaction, that will help you identify when it’s starting so you can shift it. The easiest way to find those sensations is to remember the last time you were triggered, and bring your attention into your body – where does the sensation of triggered seem to be centered? Is the feeling hot or cold? Tight or loose? Smooth or prickly? Steady or throbbing? Does it feel empty or full? Don’t interpret or analyze, just identify. Do this exercise with other instances of being in fear or triggered, so you can compare each instance and find the commonalities; do it often enough so it becomes second nature to recognize the sensations. Your head will not be able to tell you when you’re getting triggered, but your body can.

    This exercise will also help you to defuse the triggers, by allowing you to process in your body, rather than trying to do it in your head. When a fear is brought up, and you go into the sensations of it, continually pulling your attention back to the physical sensations until they have subsided, you are taking your control back; the chemical reaction behind the emotion will also dissipate faster. By staying out of the thoughts, which are likely to keep going, you just don’t have to pay attention to them, you neutralize whatever caused the fear reaction in the first place – it’s no longer good or bad, it just is. Once the chemical reaction is gone, your mind will be clear and you can make better decisions more quickly, and because the originating event is neutralized, it becomes easier to act to change it, if that is what needs to happen.

    Anger, on the other hand, has a different dynamic to it. We are taught as children to either suppress it or exhibit it with violence (depending on the proclivities of our caregivers). But in a vacuum, anger is merely a call to action, a push or surge of energy. If we don’t know that, we don’t know what to do with it. We don’t know how to channel the energy into getting things done, into the courage to speak up, or into breaking through emotional or spiritual blocks. We don’t know how to ask what the next appropriate action is. If we fear our own anger, on some level we fear being powerful, and this can lead to rage, which is disempowering. When we fear the anger of others, we actually fear how anger is expressed.

    If anger is a call to action, we need to figure out what action we are being called to. If the anger is masking a fear, it is vital that we identify the fear. Make a list of the things you fear, write it down somewhere and carry it around with you so that the next time you are angry, you can look at the list and see if that’s what’s going on. Fear exists in the darkness – start to identify it and it will have less power over you. If you know what your anger is really telling you, you will better know what to do with that information. Anger, when acknowledged, is only frightening to those who don’t want change to occur.

    I leave you with words that I channeled in 2014, that ring more true than ever:

    As we have told you before, everyone in a given situation is blessed, whether they be victim, perpetrator, or witness. This is certainly the case here. What you are witnessing, once again, is an opportunity for the human race to come together as one and step away from the illusion of separation, to actively choose to heal cultural wounds, and for each person to reach their hand out to another and let them know they matter.This is done by insisting on change, by speaking out and letting yourselves be powerful, rather than powerless. The speaking out needs to be done by both people who feel they have no voice and people who know that they do. This is done by acknowledging the humanity of every person you encounter, and treating them with respect. This is done by owning your wounds and acknowledging theirs, both of the personal and cultural variety. It needs to be done in spite of the persons of supposed authority, who keep their “power” by keeping others off balance. It is they who have no wish for people to have humanity. Do not let them define you. Reach out, listen to what people have to say, hear them to the best of your ability. Ask questions. Have conversations. Be respectful of their experience and yours. But do not assume you are powerless. Change happens when supposedly powerless people rise up and force those around them to hear them, when people who have supposed power speak up for the people who feel powerless, and when injustice is no longer something people will put up with.

    You are powerful. Each and every one of you. Stop allowing people to tell you you’re not. The tide is coming back in, and change is surging. Pray for change, allow for change, work for change. The status quo works for a very small number of people. Even some who have that privilege aren’t really happy with it.

    Now is the time for change. Make it happen by moving toward change. Know that those around you are deserving of humanity and treat them accordingly. Stop letting fear define you, stop letting fear define them.

    May you be the light of the world!

    Posted in Anger, Crisis, empowerment, Equality, Events, Goddess, Healing, Personal growth, Politics, Practice, Shift, Tools

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